i honestly thought i could go to you for anything. i thought this distance would bring us closer. i thought you would understand where i was coming from. i was wrong. i know i still act like a child at times, i’m working on that. my mentality and attitude are maturing, but just give me time. that’s all i’m asking. i just want you to be supportive, and at least proud of me for the success i’ve done. i’m the baby i get it. i’m spoiled i get it. but that doesn’t make me any less then you. you made mistakes, i know you did. i had and always will have your back in everything you do. it would be nice to know that you have mine too. sure i’m ignorant and stupid at times, but i eventually learn and grow from it. you just need to understand that you’re not the only one that’s stressed. if i knew that you at least cared, my stress level would go down.

i understand i fucked up… again. but i’m trying to fix it. that’s why i turned to you for advice, and what did you do? yell at me. like always. but i took it. it doesn’t matter to you that i cry, you just want me to suck it up, but you don’t understand how overwhelming this is for me. but still i attempt to smile and hope that things get better. that’s all i can really hope for.

please, let things get better.